Update.

Long time no write. So I had a really good Christmas with my family in Utah sans the husband. It was cold and reminded me that I will probably never live there again, but I had a lot of fun with the nieces and nephews, it was fun to watch them open there presents and help them play with their new toys.

Charlie and I's NEW YEARS EVE was very quite. He left for work around 9:20 and I went to bed right after that. We are so exciting.

My pregnancy is going better, somewhat. I have learned that I have gestational diabetes and toxemia. So I am going to a class for the diabetes and the only cure for toxemia is delivery so I just have to watch my blood pressure and not let stress get to me. Which is always easier said than done, right.

I have included a few recent prego pictures for your viewing pleassure. Of course I think I just look fat, but hope you enjoy them.

IT"S A GIRL!!

So I have really thought this entire time that I was having a boy. I was certain. Well today we found out it is a very HEALTHY baby girl. Thank you to everyone who has prayed for us and supported us in some of our troubled times. We appreciate it more than you will ever know.

Any suggestions on girl names?

Scary News

So I have really been trying not to scare myself during this pregnancy with what ifs and such but last night I got so news from my OB that upset me. I have also tried really hard to stay off the Internet with some of the symptoms I have been having. On Monday as I said in the previous post, we went to have an ultrasound to find out what we are having. Friday night my OB leaves me a message saying she has had a chance to go over my ultrasound results and there is a problem with the umbilical cord. Most healthy umbilical cords have three arteries or yet two arteries and one vein. Mine however is what they call a Single Umbilical Artery, which means there is only one artery and one vein. Over the message she tells me that it can cause abnormalities in anatomy and that we should see a Perinatal Specialist. So instead of staying away from the internet and just waiting to see what the specialist has to say I start my own research which was a VERY bad idea.

I find that if I write about it then I don't cry or freak out as much, unless of course I am talking to my mother, then I just cry and cry. I am not asking why me, but more of what does this mean? Am I going to be able to handle this? Is the baby going to live? I have a lot to be thankful for in my life and I don't want to forget that ever, I know my Heavenly Father loves me and I will never forget that. I don't blame God, I don't blame myself, I just want to know what now? I pray that this baby is as healthy as can be and won't have to deal with too much in life. I pray that I can be the best mother I can and show this child all the love I have.

I am sorry this is such a depressing blog but I needed to get it out and just release some of this weight I feel. God be with you all and with my baby.

A NEW POST

So this is for a few of my friends who have requested that they needed updates. As you can tell from previous posts, I only write when something is going on, cause my life is pretty boring.

Well I have been feeling much better in way of the baby, however I got a nasty case of Bronchitis I am currently working on getting over. I started to feel little movements which is NOT at all what I expected it to feel like. Which brings me to think of a few things no one ever told me about pregnancy.

• It feels like they are punching you from the inside


• You pee a little bit every time you sneeze, cough, laugh, etc.


• Headaches NEVER go away


• You wake up every two hours to pee


• And countless others I can't think of or remember right now because of the lack of concentration.

Also, we did have an Ultrasound appointment on Monday to find out what this thing in side me is and we are excited to announce it is HUMAN.

We were scared there for a bit, however, it was feeling shy so we are still in the dark like the rest of you. I promise when I find out what sex it is I will let EVERYONE know. Importantly we know it is healthy and on track, which is about as much as I could ask for. I actually am very grateful to be pregnant. Charlie and I have both wanted children for a long time and we feel very blessed that this child is coming into our lives. Hope this finds everyone well.

Hospital Visits

So far I have been to the hospital twice with this pregnancy and I am only 13.5 weeks along. My first visit was Sept 13th, I was having sever pains on my right side and couldn't hardly stand up straight. I was afraid it was ectopic which I think I talked about in an earlier post, but the second time was this last Tuesday. Charlie came home like he normally does at 8:30 and woke me up to get ready for work. I got ready to get in the shower when I realized I was bleeding, quite a bit. I had no pain which scared me even more because of my past experience with miscarriage. I called my Dr.'s office and they told me to go to the ER now. We got to the ER around 10am and didn't leave there until 4pm. I had an ultrasound and everything looks fine with the baby. Very active and healthy heart rate. About half way through our ER visit I start to get the same pains I had in Sept. After 6 hours in the ER and lots of blood work later, they send me home with a diagnosis of Threaten Miscarriage. Which pretty much means nothing to me. They tell me that the baby looks and sounds fine so why tell me its a possible miscarriage. I am told to go home and rest and follow up with my OB. So yesterday I am still bleeding and in pain and I go see my OB who tells me there is nothing wrong with the baby but she has NO idea what is causing the bleeding or the pain. So here I am, still bleeding and STILL in PAIN!! and there is not a dang thing I can do about it, except take Tylenol and really that does NOTHING for the pain. I just hope it gets better and will be an easy pregnancy from here on out or I don't know if I can do it again after this one.

A BIT early but we can't help it

Okay so I know that we still have like 29 weekes until this baby comes but we couldn't help ourselves. And if you know my husband, you know he likes to be PREPARED. I think we could have this baby tomorrow and we would be ready. Charlie got a student loan and we decided to use some of the money for baby furniture. It came in last Friday and we just had to pick it up. The crib was actually very easy to put together although the desser not so much.
Sorry about the quality of the pictures, they were taken with Charlie's phone. And we don't know what we are having yet but my sister gave me the bedding and I thought it was SO cute I just had to use it. I think it could go either way, although I really feel like I am having a boy.

UPDATES!!!

Okay so I know I have been a major slacker with this blog. But honestly I thought nothing exciting had happened, that is until I was told otherwise last night at family dinner. First off let me start back in July, as you may remember I was laid off the end of June so I decided I was going to take a vacation. I started with 10 days in Saint George at my best friends house, we went to the lake, watched fireworks, and played with the kids a ton. Then I headed to Clearfield to see my sister Katie and her newest baby Payton.While there my moms family was having their first ever family reunion. I had never been to a family reunion and so really didn't know what to expect. My Uncle does some work for a family that owns this HUGE cabin up Spanish Fork Canyon. Katie, Jayden, Madyson, Breanna, my Mom and I headed up on Friday July 11th. After getting lost for about two hours and endless dirt roads, my uncle came to find us. I was surprised to see just how much of my family was there. Some of my cousins I hadn't seen in 16 years if ever. We had a great time and it was really nice to have so much family together in one place. We played games and cooked and just sat around and talked. I drove home with my Aunt and Grandpa on the 15th.
August wasn't that exciting until about the 15th when I found out I was pregnant. I know you are all thinking "how is that NOT exciting news?" Well I didn't want to get my hopes to soon. With my history I was scared to say anything too soon. Although I did tell my husband and my family.

On August 28th I was offered a job with Community Collaborative Charter Schools as an Office Clerk. I started September 8th and I love it. The teachers are great, the kids are nice, and the pay is good.

Another reason I hadn't wanted to say anything about the pregnancy was that I was having A LOT of pain in my abdomen, especially the right side. I have had a history of ovarian cyst so I wasn't sure if it was that or an ectopic. Charlie was so worried that he insisted we go to the ER. Side note, I don't have insurance yet. Anyway, he didn't care about that and was so worried it was giving him stomach issues. We got to the ER Saturday morning about 11am, they got me right in and set me up with an IV and gave me drugs for the pain. We got in to the ultra sound around 2pm, after all was said and done, I have a cyst on my LEFT ovary, nothing on my right to explain the pain. We did get to see our BLOB flutter, as Charlie put it. So we know it is in the right place and doing what it needs to be doing, which makes Charlie and I feel tons better. I may not know what is causing the pain but knowing that everything else is ok for now will help me get through it.

I also need to give thanks to my Heaven Father for keeping me safe and taken care off. My husband and I have been on our knees more in the last two months than in a really long time. He has given us both strength neither of us thought we had and helped calm fears. It has been hard for me to get the desire to go back to church. With my husband not a member and me not knowing anyone in the ward, it is easier for me to just stay in bed and read my scriptures and pray. I know I need to be going, I need to make it a priority and stick to it.

Anyway, there it is, the update on the Lawson's for the last two and a half months. Sorry it took so long.