Saturday, June 28, 2008

Why me? Why Now?

Okay so I should start off and say that I need to be counting my blessings and not playing the pity party card, I know that I have a lot going for me in my life but just when things start to go right something bad happens. I started going back to church and living the way God wants me to and actually got Charlie to go to. For those that don't know, my husband Charlie is not a member of the church. He has amazing faith and is very open to the gospel which is also a huge blessing, but we hadn't been to church since our wedding. Anyway, we start going to church, reading the scriptures and all that other good stuff. I had three jobs and even tho I hated the one the paid the bills, I was going to stick with it. On Monday night I got really sick. Sicker than I had been in a really long time. I couldn't keep anything down. I called in sick to work (the job I hate) because I knew I would spend most of my day in the bathroom. I was in bed all day Tuesday and Tuesday night it got worse. I thought I was going to die, or maybe I wanted to die because the pain was so bad but I knew I wasn't going to get any sleep and would again spend the next day in the bathroom as well. I called and left a voice mail message for my boss that I wouldn't be in on Wednesday either, but that I was sorry and hoped I would feel better by Thursday so I wouldn't miss anymore time. Wednesday morning around 10 am I get a call from my boss. First, I am finally asleep and some what comfortable, and second I really didn't know quite what was going on. Anyway, he says to me that he feels it is time for BSES and Amy to part ways. Half asleep I finally realize what he is saying, he is firing my over the phone when I am feeling near death. I guess I was quiet for too long cause he says "did you hear me?" Um I think what you are saying is that you no longer want me to work for you? Well the market is REALLY slow right now and I don't have anything to do when I am there but WHO fires, or "lets someone go" when they are sick? I just don't get it. Now of course I don't want HIM (boss man) to think he got to me, so I don't cry until after we hang up, but come on, I am sick, I am sleepy, and I just lost my job. Even if I did HATE the place and pretty much everyone that worked there, I was already emotional.
So it is Saturday and the only good thing that has come from this, besides not having to work at a place I hate, is that my little sister just had her third baby in Utah and we have a family reunion out there in two weeks. Before, I wouldn't have been able to go because I could never get time off but now, I have all the time in the world. Of course I have to find another job and soonish but it will be nice to get out there and see family and not have to worry about seeing BSES again. The other good thing is I wouldn't have been able to go back to work on Thursday. I thought Tuesday night was the worst of it but I had NO idea what I was in for. Here it is Saturday and I finally feel some what normal. I ate today for the first time in four days. Even tho I didn't eat for that time, I don't think I lost any weight. BLAH!
So, I am going to Utah for a mini vacation and then it is full force ahead to find a new job. Wish me luck.

Friday, June 13, 2008

Date Night

I meant to blog about this earlier but I tend to put things off for a long time and then forget. So since I am always so bored at work I thought why not do something productive, even if it isn't productive for the company....

My birthday was in April and Charlie surprised me with tickets to see Phantom of the Opera here in Sacramento. I love the theatre but have only been a few times. I fell in love with the story of Phantom when I saw a high school performance of it. Then of course the movie was good too, but I have always wanted to see it live. Not many of you know Charlie, but he is NOT your theatre going kind of guy. He would rather watch football or wrestling (WWF or whatever they call it now). So when I saw two tickets I figured he wanted me to take my mom or a friend. Nope he wanted to experience something new with me. I have been so blessed with him in my life. I have never had a man treat me the way he does, he really will do anything for me.

The play was on Wednesday, May 28th, and we started the night at our favorite Mexican Restaurant which also happens to be the sight of our first date.

We had a wonderful dinner and then proceeded to the show. We were a bit early so we took a nice walk around capitol park, I would have taken more pictures but I had forgotten to charge the camera battery and I didn't want to waste it, of course now I wish I had taken some of the capitol, it was beautiful at sunset. Anyway we found our seats which were perfect, in the middle of the grand tier where I could see the entire stage. The play was amazing. Charlie actually enjoyed himself and even said he wouldn't mind seeing another one sometime, maybe even something at Music Circus. Over all I had a wonderful time with my wonderful husband and best friend. I love you so much Charlie and I hope that I show you that every day for the rest of our lives. You are my one and only, and I can't believe you actually picked me.

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Motherhood

Okay so I know I haven't blogged in like forever but nothing exciting happens in my life. EVER! I really don't like my job, that is my full time job. I sit all day long and do nothing. I know some of you think this would be great but I get so bored. I can't tell you how many people I feel like I am stalking because I go look at their blogs everyday and yet they probably have no idea who I am or remember me, anyway, I am bored out of my mind and can't help but think how much fun it would be to be a stay at home mom. Motherhood has been on my mind a lot lately, or lack of motherhood rather. I know I have only been married for five months but I want kids so bad and I want them while I am still kinda young. The other frustrating thing is that I don't know if we did have a baby, if we could afford for me to be a stay at home mom. I am the bread winner, the one who puts food on the table, and Charlie has said many times that he would love to be a stay at home dad so that I could still work. I don't want to work. I am just venting here but seriously, I want to be there when my children start to talk, crawl, walk, date. I don't want to be stuck behind some desk just because I make more money. Personally I think he will make a great dad and he is already my little home maker. He does the laundry, and cleans and even cooks sometimes.

Anyway I know I should quit complaining and count my many blessings because I am blessed in so many ways. I have a great loving husband who would do anything for me, amazing parents who have never given up on me, sisters that just keep giving me nephews and niece(S) to play with and a brother who.....well whom I love. My friends are awesome and always there when I need to talk or scream.