Motherhood

Okay so I know I haven't blogged in like forever but nothing exciting happens in my life. EVER! I really don't like my job, that is my full time job. I sit all day long and do nothing. I know some of you think this would be great but I get so bored. I can't tell you how many people I feel like I am stalking because I go look at their blogs everyday and yet they probably have no idea who I am or remember me, anyway, I am bored out of my mind and can't help but think how much fun it would be to be a stay at home mom. Motherhood has been on my mind a lot lately, or lack of motherhood rather. I know I have only been married for five months but I want kids so bad and I want them while I am still kinda young. The other frustrating thing is that I don't know if we did have a baby, if we could afford for me to be a stay at home mom. I am the bread winner, the one who puts food on the table, and Charlie has said many times that he would love to be a stay at home dad so that I could still work. I don't want to work. I am just venting here but seriously, I want to be there when my children start to talk, crawl, walk, date. I don't want to be stuck behind some desk just because I make more money. Personally I think he will make a great dad and he is already my little home maker. He does the laundry, and cleans and even cooks sometimes.

Anyway I know I should quit complaining and count my many blessings because I am blessed in so many ways. I have a great loving husband who would do anything for me, amazing parents who have never given up on me, sisters that just keep giving me nephews and niece(S) to play with and a brother who.....well whom I love. My friends are awesome and always there when I need to talk or scream.